Random Ramblings

I have so much going on in my mind I decided to just do one big random post.  I have been a single mom since Thursday and Oh.What.A.Ride.

- The "Incident" went like this; get to the mall with the kids, AL (11months) and LD (4) - no stroller.  I go in anyways - I'm tough. Right.  Get to the shoe store as I said as soon as the clerk brought us to the running shoes LD starts SCREAMING hear tummy hurts.  Should I remind you here how gross public bathrooms are and that I am carrying an infant?  I will save you the rest of the details.  So when I got home I could feel the stress aging me and I told my husband "these kids are the vampires of fun".  They are so fun to do stuff one-on-one with but it is very difficult to have 2 or more out in public.

-Thursday is hubby's first day away and AM has soccer practice at 5:30p.m.; I have a committee meeting for our May event at 4:30p; and there is the issues of getting the two little one's picked up from daycare and finding someone to watch them.  It was a complete exhausting circus!!
 
-Friday I stayed up until 11pm to get stuff ready for a baby shower I was hosting on Saturday.  At 11:30p.m. LD wakes me up saying she wet her bed, but she had a pull-up on so I couldn't figure out how that was possible.  SO I get her in the bath an clean up her room and the hall and anything else she touched.  That night LD ended up with 3 baths and me washing 3 sets of sheets.  She stopped throwing up at about 5:30a.m. and stopped rolling around moaning about 6:00a.m. and AL was up at 6:30 a.m.  Needless to say I did not make the shower my sister picked everything up and got it took care of everything.  My mom picked up AL for a while so I could get some rest.  LD had other plans so she roamed the house watching tv while I slept.

- Saturday I got some rest but I also got a lot of bleaching and laundry taken care of.  I love a freshly bleached home!!  I also got AM and I Chinese food.  Hubby hates Chinese so it was a treat for us.  I actually had a great day Saturday.  I sometimes make my families life so busy that we never just get to hang out and enjoy each other and we did just that this Saturday.

-Chinese food realization when I was done gorging eating I felt kind of miserable and possibly ashamed of what I had just eaten and a memory of childhood flashed.  I was the "good eater" in my family.  My two sisters were pains in the asses picky eaters.  So while we ate almost every meal as a family our meals mostly consisted of my mom and step-dad trying to get my sisters to eat.  So my flash was of me and my proud face when I had eaten everything.  Not feelin so proud these days! Weird how life changes.  I think this is one of the reasons I don't fight with my kids to eat.  If they aren't hungry they aren't hungry.

Here is my final rant.  A few months ago I was struggling because I had all of these emotions and felt like I had to be a certain way on my blog.  So I wrote a big long post about it.  Out of respect I sent it over to my editor (hubby).  What he sent me back really made sense.  (paraphrasing) "If you feel like you need to post this than do, but I see your blogging from both sides and what I like about it is that sometimes blogging makes you look at the good side of things.  So I never posted that post because I decided that's what I like about blogging too.  I tell some of my frustrating stories but I will keep my dirty laundry to myself.

The point of that most RANDOM story is that I am still struggling to get back to business with my good eating habits.  I am feeling a little overwhelmed these days.  So in true blogging spirit I am going to write post this week that outline my weekly struggles and how I plan on kicking those struggles in the behind!!!  So look out for my Kung Fu posts this week - because this chick is kicking butt and taking names!